So I’m pseudo-off campus (on campus apt’s) & enjoying living with a good friend. But today I had to spend some time in my old dorm floor.. and well.. it took longer than expected. Why? cuz everyone’s talking. I rapidly learned that while they don’t have anything better to be doing, I did, and I wasted some productive time. Another reason I like living with my friend.. we both are able to be productive. but there’s something about that dorm life.. that as one guy up there said, “living in a dorm isn’t real. something doesn’t add up.. it’s like the twilight zone.”
I fully agree. We’re all cubby-holed up into our own prison cells. There’s no relaxing, homey feel. There’s weird boundaries in place.. ppl don’t just casually stop/walk by.. if they come by, it’s to talk. So relationships are all or nothing.. not like having a friend who’s sitting on yer couch reading & doing his work.. at least then there’s someone around, a sense of “I’m not alone.” But in the dorm, ppl just don’t do homework in each other’s rooms. It’s not allowed.
eh.. a random rant too late when I should be doing logic homework.. hmm.. logic late at night.. this could get ugly!
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Friend sent me this: http://myspace.com/asobiseksu . watch the video on it & you’ll see what I mean by:
It is a deeply and firmly embedded constant (don’t dare use ‘truth’) in those presently aged 20-23(Millenium gen?) that life is chaotic, syncopated, multi-threaded.. unresolvable. It simply just ‘is’.
More to come..
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I wonder if we don’t look to Christ because we don’t get what we expect.. And what do we expect? Productivity? Believing Jesus loves me doesn’t help me make more $.. doesn’t help me with my clients.. What do we pray for? What don’t we get? So we stop asking!
Jesus isn’t here to get you more $ or the American dream!! That’s using him.. (read james!)
Simply our highest priority, our most beloved value is our job and what it gives us. And at 40-45hrs/week, we’ll see the ppl at work more than our own wives and children for goodness sake! I’m not exactly blaming us individually, but pointing out that our american environment (capitalism!?) is forcing this on us, and it’s killing us.
So what do we do? It’s not like I can survive on a part time job?!” Actually, you can; I have. But that’s not the point either. It just means that we get to fight harder. That we must take the time to be reminded of our Father’s love for us.. but oh, I forgot, that’s not productive or efficient! Yes, Jesus doesn’t help my bottom line! AND THAT’S OK!! He’s not supposed to! Jesus came to save your soul! Change your values!
We’re filled with all the stuff we don’t need. We’re told all the stuff we don’t need. We spend our time on what we don’t need. And we become addicted. Why? Cuz addictions are false means to a true end. And the true end we deny is why Jesus came. The warnings in James & 1John, etc about self-deception are so very important. The reality of ‘the antichrist’ in 1Jn is rapidly becoming more important in my thinking.. and with boundaries set, I’m falling in love again..(with my Savior)
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Ok, so now that you’ve already judged me because of the title of this document, you don’t need to read any further, so just go along your merry way ranting & flaming about how racist/judgemental/fundamentalist/american I am.
So a fellow SBTSBlogger posted this dandy article set on Speigel. Since I’m tryin to head over there in a few months, I figure I should have a clue (btw- anyone willing to help that clue-having process is encouraged to comment & let me know anything german!!!).
So while reading this article, it occurs to me that Europe is alot like Chicago. I’ve heard (unconfirmed) that Chicago has the least number of churches for it’s size of any american city. Hmm.. Europe has churches, but no one goes. Chicago churches all up & moved to outside the city limits 30 yrs ago: result: the blatent sinfulness of humanity grew. Honestly, if you have any spiritual “read” on your environment, you can FEEL the darkness set in as you enter into Chicago.
So christians up & burb-ified themselves, leaving the city sick, free to be filled with anti-christianity. Hmm.. christians have ‘given up’ in Europe & are allowing anti-christianity (islam) in.. And muslims are procreating, unlike liberal europeans, and they are taking over. (This is a simple statistical statement– don’t read into this)
The church in Chicago I’ve been going to decided to buck the trend & stay in the city & reach the city. They’ve been rather “successful” (whatever that means). My pastor saw the white-exodus & took it as opportunity. Hmm.. perhaps Deutschland is my chicago..
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Back in undergrad.. actually, the first week we heard Alistair Begg speak on God’s Providence. And for the first time I heard someone talk about how God had a plan for my life. I was dumbstruck, and quite paranoid upon learning of this! It really threw me for a loop. Over the rest of undergrad, I heard more & struggled to understand & learn His mighty pre-ordained will– everything from “God uses ppl, prayer, bible & circumstance to speak to you” to “What if I miss the opportunity & don’t meet the chic I’m to marry?! Is their one or multiple girls out there?” etc, etc..
Then I graduated & needed a job, and somehow I never had time for these questions anymore. “Just get a job that pays” was all that mattered. Of course God never left the scene, I still went to church and tried to keep the Bible reading and prayer alive daily. Somewhere you fall in line with how everyone else is living. The options, the values, the ability to choose my preference… what I want. And what I want is so easy to get.
We take the good God brings, and use it for our own good. “God wants me to be a successful businessman..” “God wants me to live a good moral life..” “God wants my life to be full” These are christian ideas, but honestly, Where’s God in ‘em?
God has set the ‘house rules’ in his word, but there’s more to living in a home than keeping the rules!
All that is implicit Christianity. Godliness without God. But instead, what if we explicitly asked God if he wants us to do such-n-such a thing.. And actually listen to him and step down even when we want to do it anyways. Forbid we actually live by the mind of the Genius One who sees beginning from end instead of whatever tiny plan my mind can come up with..
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